What would you do in my shoes?

UGH!!!!!!


Current mood: depressed








i just really need to vent. I HAVE THE WORSE MOST SELF CENTERED PIECE OF **** BOYFRIEND IN THE WORLD!!!!! ok, i feel a little better.





so im sitting home on friday night at 2:30 in the morning bored as ****. i thought that i was good enough for my bf to come see... but i guess his other gf already gave him some so wtf does he need me for? im outta money till tuesday.. and he already got laid... so that covers all that im good for i guess. aight, i guess i should start from the begining for those of you that i dont talk to on a regular basis, why, well cuz im not allowed.. so here it goes. this is why i feel hes cheating...





1. about two maybe three weeks ago i noticed kevin left and left his phone in his room. he NEVER does that. his phone is stuck up his ******* *** 24/7. well i got curious which was my first mistake.. and i went snooping. he had a conversation with his sister in law..





kevin: holo


chrissy: cant really talk right now, big bossman breathing down my neck


kevin: i was just thinkin bout your sweet lips around my cock


chrissy: what, last time wasnt enough


kevin:nope, what, my money not enough


chrissy: nope





and that was the end of the convo... but WTF?!? AM I NOT SUPPOSED TO FLIP THE **** OUT. any normal gf would have flipped..so i flipped. he told me i was over reacting it was nothing DROP IT. wtf? no i dont wanna drop it, i wanna know why... why..why?!? do i not please you, wtf? but all he wanted to do was drop it... so out the door i went. sick as ****, pregnant, i went walking. carrying dominick half the way.. you know i made it from his house near the post office to the ******* pike before he came and got me?!? what the hell. any normal guy that gave a **** wouldnt have let his prego gf go out the door at all but whatever. so i swallowed it and dropped it. he picked me up and took me back to his house, i was crying and all i wanted to do was go home. but no, we had "make up sex" me repulsed the whole time.. but i did it. he went to sleep, i sat there and cried. i confronted his brother about it, kevin told him i made it up and i was crazy... they all laughed. i cried harder.





2. a couple days later he left his phone again.. no biggie, he was smart enough to delete his texts this time, but not his call log. he had a 10 minute convo with brittany on there. mind you, brit is the whore he met at a bar when we split up in december, he claims nothing happened. anyway, he told me she lived in harrisburg and that she didnt have his new number. so i dropped it. but seeing that she had two wayed him and they had a full convo just lit the fuse a little more. so i called the ***** from MY phone. she answered:





me: who is this?


brit: oh im sry, i was putting numbers in my brothers phone and accidently hit a wrong one


me: umm, who is this?


brit: brittany


me: do you know a kevin


brit: kevin who


me: kevin monn


brit: yea


me: how?!?


brit: i told you, i was puttin numbers in my brothers phone and accidently hit a wrong one


me: is this the brittany in harrisburg


brit: no, i live in blue ridge summit


me: ok thx





i had all the info i needed. the ***** lied through her teeth, first of all, i didnt even call her from his phone, i called her from mine. so how would she have accidently called mine? and second, if she called from her brothers phone, how would i have gotten HER NUMBER?!? duh. how ******* stupid do ppl think i am?!? but i dropped it. didnt even say anyhthing to kevin.. later that night she two wayed him and i saw the number, but he grabbed his phone and thought i didnt see it. i asked him who it was.. he said tom. then he proceeded to go throuh his phone book to get toms number and started talking to him. umm, if tom just two wayed him it woulda been the last niumber in his call log... but im stupid. so anyway, he went up to the kitchen and i followed him like white on ******* rice... he got off the phone and was like im going to put my phone on the charger... i said thats ok baby, ill do it for you. he was like no its aight, i gotta go down there anyway. thats when i blew. i said yea, btw, the ***** two wayed you to tell you i called you earlier. he turned bigger then **** and was like wtf are you tlaking about. i said brittany... i saw the ******* number. WOW did he blow.. i thought for sure my *** was hittin a wall, but no instead he stormed away and called me a psycho *****. i asked him why she called him, he was like i dunno... i said why you talking to her.. im not! i never answer. yea ok, thats hwy all her info was on ur phoen and there was a time log of like ten minutes.. yup uh huh. anymore lies? but im stupid... then i asked him why he llied about her living in harrisburg... i dunno.. ok, well u just happen to go to blue ridge summit everday and im not supposed to think ur seeing her?!? again.. i swallowed.. and dropped it.





3. about a week later he asked me to clean his room while he was at work. no biggie, thats what a good girlfriend does.. so i did. while putting his clothes in his drawer i noticed a tit staring up at me.. im thinking ALRIGHT lol, porn. i pull it out curious... and its a ******* 50+ PORN. you know, old hags getting naked. showing their nasty wrinkly bodies to nasty ***** like kevin. wtf?!? so the tears are in my eyes.. but i hold em in. im thinking well maybe it was his before we got together, i start looking for a date. january 2008. YOU GOT TO BE ******* KIDDING ME!!! if old wrinkly woman is what turns him on, why did he leave 44 year old irish for me? why is he putting me through this ****.. why is he with me when its obviously not what he wants. im not what turns him on. so i confront him about it when he gets home... whats he do.. LIE. cuz im stupid... he was like i got that mag years ago... really? so they made 2008 editions before 2008 was here?!? open mouth, insert foot. so he started screaming.. YOU WENT TRHOUGH THE EFFORT OF SEARCHING FOR A DATE. well yea, im thorough. well he flipped told me to stop snooping and mind my own ******* business. umm, ur my bf, isnt it all my business. isnt what turns you on my business?!? and i wasnt snooping this time, i was doing what he asked me to do. wtf. i woulda been ok if they were young.. thats NORMAL. but old hags, cut me some slack. i got self esteem issues as it is and all he does is make it worse. but again.. i swallowed.. no i gulped and dropped it.





4. i thoroughly cleaned his room again for him.. he came home, instead of saying it looked good, no he starts screaming at me cuz i didnt do his laundry. wtf? u didnt ask me to. his mom was like what the hell, angie you didnt sit down all day. i was like yea, he dont care. so we left to go to my doctor apt to make sure everything was ok with the baby, hear the heartbeat and stuff... we get there and he sits in hte truck. i was like arent you coming in? he said for what, your mad at me. iw as like well yea, you screamed at me for not being a good slave, you owe me an appology. he was like i dont owe you ****, hurry the **** up. so i went to my apt lonely and tryin hard as **** not to cry. swallowed it and let it go





5. i called his house today and talked to his mom and shes sick as ****.. so i was like aight, well when he gets home have him call me. he did, i told him i didnt want to take dominick or me around his mom cuz shes sick and dominick just got done being sick and me too. plus, hes been promising to pay for my prego vitamins prescription since all my money goes to him, and he has yet to do it, so i have NO IMMUNE SYSTEM. he starts screaming at me and hangs up on me. i was like wtf?!? i called him back and asked him if he was gonna come see me. he was like if i come see you its to pick you up and bring you back here. i was like why cant you come stay here this weekend? ur mom is sick.. i dont want to be around it and theres no need for her to hear us fight right now. he was like wtf ever angie, i made my decision. he was like you dont have to ******* get up early and work, i do. i was like but its the weekend, you never work. he started screaming some more. so i was like yea, not my fault brittany is working you so ******* hard and i hung up. about three hours later he two ways my phone and was like well. i said well what. he was like im waiting for my appology. umm for what? he was like the brittany comment. um sry, i can't appologize for something i meant. he started screaming some more, i cut him off. said **** you, and turned my phone off.





so thats a brief rundown of the **** hes put me through recently... and thats not even all of it but i needed to vent. im going crazy locked up in my head. i know i should leave him... but something keeps stopping me. its not love.. cuz god knows thats dead. i just dont know... but im here for the weekend. and the closer it gets to my birthday, the meaner hes getting.. i know hes gonna ruin it just like he did last year. i spend my birthday doing laundry and finding him weed cuz he said that was the only way id get to see him, even then i only saw him for less then ten minutes and i spend my birthday crying. cant wait to see whats in store this year....

What would you do in my shoes?
I'm not taking time to read that...


But from what I gather from the first few paragraphs, dump the motherf******
Reply:i'm glad that i don't wear shows (or sandals)
Reply:wow thats really long but I did read it and you need to get rid of him fast. Run the other direction as quick as possible. Hes not worth being with. you can do soo much better. and I wouldn't believe anything he says if he tries crawling back to you. he doesn't want to change.
Reply:OMG!!! Too much to read,so I'll just answer your initial question,"what would I do in your shoes"? Maybe pee a little. There ya go. Geeeeesh. Feel better ok?
Reply:Way way too long I can't read all that I have a life of my own. But you can go to http://www.InternetPokerBonuses.com for expert poker advice.
Reply:WOW! why dont you just break up with him. cause he sounds like a real jerk!
Reply:first off you said you have low selfesteamwell this guy has made it 10000000000000000x worse. You really should completly cut yourself off. Considering what he does you should try to stay as far away as possible if he doesn't respect that look into your leagle options. Also see if you can talk to a counseler i know this is ideal but it will help. The fact that he uses sex as an appoligy just proves he doesn't care about you at all. He is just using you if you don't end it soon you could end up in jail for something he told you to do. He also shows abusive behaveore which could worsen and ture into physical abuse. The fact he treats you like that on your birthday should have been the last straw LAST YEAR!!!!Don't wait dump him!!!God only knows what will happen accutally this will you'll be treated like that again then, he'll find a knew slab of meat to have sex with, and you'll slip into depression all your money goes to him so he won't help so you'll drag dominck down too.amazng how much this guy could drag you down in i donno 1-2 weeks,tops.
Reply:too long; didn't read.
Reply:ahhh way too long
Reply:How about you stop wasting time with this BS and dump him. Unless you love drama and complaining about drama, bloody move on to someone less... everything he is. The whole point to dating is to find somebody COMPATIBLE. So quit wasting you young years away. Sheesh.
Reply:whoo too long :(
Reply:WHAT THE HELL!? gurl if ur sticking with this dude cuz of the baby, its not worth it! thats all im gonna say.. ITS NOT WORTH IT! dnt be stupid like that! be strong! leave him!
Reply:ditch the jackass. you'll never be happy, believe me.


you're only feeding his ego by continuing to stay with him after he repeatedly hurts you. sounds like he gets off by knowing he was able to make you cry.


plus, that old lady porn?? that sh*ts whack and nasty as hell.
Reply:HULLO!!!!What the H*** are your doing??? Don't you have any self esteem. I couldn't even read the whole posting. I felt like I was reading a scene from "Boyz in the Hood." To say, forget him is an understatement because there are so many things wrong here on so many levels. First, you don't need anyone, let alone you boyfriend, to treat you like a concubine. Hell, he isn't even your boyfriend. He is just your child's father. But guess what? He will be many child's father, because he is a thug. Wait. Father is an honored name that goes to someone who cares. He is ....yes a thug. Walk, no RUN!!! as fast as you can away from this loser. Don't waste your energy or allow your children to endure this dysfunction. Get yourself on track and don't think that this is a normal life and you deserve this. There is so much more and so much better. You just have to desire it. I wish you luck.
Reply:Your attached, and you probably want your baby to have a father. But he wouldn't make a GOOD father. You need to save a good amount of money and ask your parents[or relatives] if you can stay at their house for a few weeks, and confront him about leaving for good. Hes not doing anything for you.
Reply:Dump the dirtbag and start living your life! You've wasted enough time on this guy and you deserve better.





Good luck :)
Reply:wow. I'll agree with the guy before me... that was super long. I didn't read all of it... but it seems like you could use a pint of rocky road ice cream, a box of kleenex and someone to talk to. If this guy is being that ridiculous to you... drop him. you don't have to deal with that... Actually, that long thing should have helped you get a lot of that stress off your chest and you should feel a bit better already. Hopefully things work out better for you.
Reply:ok i didn't read all that.. cause i have a life and everything. But if i was in ur situation i'd dump his sorry ***!! excuse the profanity. THere is absolutely no reason to be with a cheater that doesn't appreciate what he has
Reply:I know you said u can't leave him but you need to try your best i mean i know ur having a baby with him but you need to get out of that relashionship



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